I do not feel like me

Take me back to the time

When the air smells of memory When my hair was long and lively

And I felt like I was me

I seem to have forgotten

How to act myself

Change has been my movement

And life sits on the shelf

I remember how to yearn

And reminisce on feelings full

I have mastered to discern

What was and now is null

I miss my home

and what came with it

I miss my dog

My old friends and habits

Please inspiration

Flood me again

I can’t find the motive

To pick up my brush or my pen

I’m tired

and things are moving too fast

I stay in bed longer

I go to bed last

I call up my sister

and feel again whole

A tinge of that feeling

A piece of my soul

I’m so stuck in places

I cannot undo

More knots keep on forming

And from them roots grew

Dalya I miss you

And I love you so much

I’m sorry you feel this

And hold all this stuff

I want you to laugh

and feel like your own

I hope you find it in you

The art that you’ve shown

Be kind and be loving

Be these to yourself

And know this too shall pass

All in good health

It’s scary I know

When the start seems so blurry

But no need to rush

You’re not in a hurry

Take a deep breath

And you’ll find the right pace

To put yourself back

To your own unique space

Adventure will come and feel right again

You’ll learn more and make more

Be relaxed, take it in

You’ll let your hair down

Stay up till late

Not guilt about snacking

Not care for the weight

You’ll be the girl that makes you smile

It’s ok if that takes a little while